I am about to make a decision that goes against everything I believed in about life, and truth be told I still have doubts in my head. I believed that money brings conformance and stability, and happiness is largely a function of the two. But in the past 3 years that had been anything but true. I was always chasing after a higher salary, a more glamorous job title, etc and I've never had a truly happy day.
The past 3 years were a journey of self-discovery. It took 100 miserable weekends and an abusive boss to finally make me realise that money and status are really pointless if you are not actually living. I have been thinking and thinking, "why is life just so hard?". I think I found the answer: Life isn't hard in this part of the world, but most of us choose to live it the hard way. Our ancestors had it tough, no doubts about it. They lived in an era where even basic necessities weren't easy to come by. Their offspring were meant to reap the rewards of their labour but we went a bit too far in doing so, and in the process lost our way and sacrificed the values that made life worth living: friendship, the kampung spirit, kindness, time with our families, meaningful relationships, and the desire to contribute to the collective well-being of society.
This decision to go against everything I've identified myself with is frightening. But I think it's ultimately a decision worth taking. And God bless me.
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